He's Single!

Thanks to the sly detective work of a co-worker, I found out my crush is single!

YES!

You Know What's Awkward?

When you awake up, remember a dream about kissing your co-worker who happens to be your current crush and then he seeing him at the office.

F-ck Me!

I came back from Orlando tan, relaxed and happy. I was in a good mood today coming into the office. I mean, who ever wants to go back to work?

Anyhow, I get to the office and my crush isn't there yet. He comes in a little later but still in the morning (ok, so I swivel my head around from my desk to periodically check if he's at his desk - yes, I'm a creeper) and when I walk by he says, "Good Morning, Lauren."

He's never said good morning to me before. PROGRESS!

Instead of cheerfully replying and striking up a conversation, what did I do? 

I acted like a completely abnormal person and just walked right by. It was like some sort of weird delayed response. I have no idea.

After that I sat at my desk wanting to band my head down against it. I tried, unsuccessfully, to find a way to start up a conversation again.

The most I did?

Managed to wink at him. I owed him one ;).

Crush Update

It's not going that well.

I am not bringing my A game. At all.

It's a little awkward to find a way to talk to him because of where he sits and we don't work in a typical office with a large lunch room, employees with a similar schedule and he sits in kind of an awkward spot.

I will work myself up to talk to him then walk by his desk and not a peep comes out. Hell, half the time I walk by him like I always do - head up, eyes averted.

WHAT IS MY PROBLEM?!

I like the guy. I want to talk to him. AND I CAN'T.

He's flirted a little more but like most guys attest - men need encouragement. I do not how I am going to do that when I can barely get it together to talk him.

OY.

He Winked at Me

I'm eating my lunch at the one tiny ledge we have in one of the tiny kitchen areas when my crush walks in to fill up his water bottle.

In an attempt at nonchalance, I kept reading my kindle and eating my lunch.

He got my attention by saying, "Hey Lauren, I didn't wish you a Happy New Year yet. Happy New Year."

I swiveled around when he said my name and caught a wink at the end.

I can't believe he winked at me. Who does that?

If I knew him better, I would totally call him out. Instead I replied with a smile, "Happy New Year to you, too."

Replaying this interaction makes me grin :) and giggle a little bit. I'm glad he winked.

Crushing at Work

It's been awhile since I've had a crush on anyone.

There is a really gorgeous guy that I work with. Undeniably good looking. Like even if he isn't your type, you can't argue that he's not attractive. I noticed him off the bat but never had a conversation with him until a couple of weeks ago.

Since then, I think he's been flirting with me.

I finally decided - what the helll! I am going to get my crush on.

It also helps to detract from Mr.The Time Is Not Right Now.