Awarded!

I started school this last week at the fabulous Parsons aka The New School. When I logged into my account, I got the best news- I was awarded the Dean's Scholarship!

The scholarships can't be applied for instead every student's application is reviewed then awarded. It looks like my stamp was not only Parsons approved but awarded, too.

That was a nice moment.

After the Blizzard: Snow Coated

NYC Blizzard

Christmas in NYC!

It's not nearly as good as being home but this is what my Christmas looks like:

I miss my whole family and friends tons and tons!!! Thinking of everyone today and wishing you a Very Merry Christmas!!!

Thanks to everyone who sent me greeting cards - that was awesome of you!

Christmas Eve with the Shields

My manager, Cris Shields took me home to Long Island (my first time ever!) and while it was freezing and we rushed out of work to make the train it was great to celebrate with new friends. Here's my Christmas Eve in photos:

Thanks for a wonderful and relaxing holiday, Cris! It meant a ton and it was so special for you to take me and have me over. I had a wonderful time.

Yup It's That Kind of a Day

Cait's NYC Adventure!

NYC: Halloween

I've Remembered Why I Hate Crying

It's mainly because once I start, I can't stop and all of the bad and maybe bad feelings I've had manifest. It's because it simultaneously breaks down a dam and my heart. I don't deal with many messy situations in my life anymore. I've tried to hold it together a bit better than that.

I'm happy that way or at least that's what I think most of the time. So when I start crying, and I'm not talking about a random tear drop or crying at the television or movies (which I do often), I can't stop. All of my hurt bleeds out through tears; illogical and logical. It's a painful experience I cannot contain. I've remembered this in the back of my brain and that's part of why I don't cry so much any more; even when it's warranted.

But when I cried like I did tonight when I really should be sleeping, I remember exactly why I hate crying so very much.